Chapter 4

It feels terrible when you know someone is angry or disappointed with you.
But the thing is, it always happen.
One incident goes, another one comes.
I only have a pair of arms, a pair of eyes, a tiny room filled with my own interest.
If you're unhappy with me, say.
Not like we only knew each other for the first time.

My civic tutor told the class during chrystal lesson that at our age, our personality is somewhat fixed.
So that means i am going to continue piss people off and can't do anything about it?
I know its inevitable to make people angry, but not over things that can be solved easily.
And it bothers me for the whole day.
Well whatever, the problem has been resolved, but i know it will still happen in future.

Went to gym today with weiquan.
Its my first time dedicating time to train for napfa, perhaps ns really strikes fear in me.
The time spent there wasn't wasted, but could have done more.
That... sums up my whole day?
I can't remember what i did in the morning.
I woke up automatically at 8 this morning and felt awake.
Why can't that happen 2 hours earlier everyday?
Then i would not need to doze off in front of so many students-.-
Yes, primary school kids, secondary school teens and jcs zeh zeh and kor kor.
Tomorrow will be reserved for my tutorials so not going to be exciting.

One more thing i realised is that i like to explore new route home every other day.
There are a dozen of combination that will get me home from school.
And i am trying to find the longest...
I dread taking bus to school in the morning, but i love sitting on the bus when on my way home.
I can't understand myself, seriously.
That could be why i pissed people off.
If a friend of mine did something that makes me unhappy, i would not have reacted unpleasantly.
But why can't they do the same for me?
Friends for years somemore.
Sigh.
Forget it, been pessimistic isn't reflected on my personality test.
So thats all for the weekend i guess, not going to update tomorrow.
Bye.